Sometime I wonder why do I fall into the same old sin and never seem to be able to get out of it. Often I put the blame on myself, not recognizing that my enemy sin prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. I reflect on the things I do, I change the way things are done so that I may not fall into the same old thing. BUT one thing that has not changed, my LOVE FOR GOD did not change.

If I can love God as much as the Dinah's brother loves her, I would go all out to eliminate sin who defiled my body which is also the temple of God!

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Genesis 34

Dinah and the Shechemites

¹ Now Dinah, the daughter Leah had borne to Jacob, went out to visit the women of the land. ² When Shechem son of Hamor the Hivite, the ruler of that area, saw her, he took her and violated her. ³ His heart was drawn to Dinah daughter of Jacob, and he loved the girl and spoke tenderly to her. ⁴ And Shechem said to his father Hamor, "Get me this girl as my wife."

⁵ When Jacob heard that his daughter Dinah had been defiled, his sons were in the fields with his livestock; so he kept quiet about it until they came home.

⁶ Then Shechem's father Hamor went out to talk with Jacob. ⁷ Now Jacob's sons had come in from the fields as soon as they heard what had happened. They were filled with grief and fury, because Shechem had done a disgraceful thing in Israel by lying with Jacob's daughter—a thing that should not be done.

⁸ But Hamor said to them, "My son Shechem has his heart set on your daughter. Please give her to him as his wife. ⁹ Intermarry with us; give us your daughters and take our daughters for yourselves. ¹⁰ You can settle among us; the land is open to you. Live in it, trade in it, and acquire property in it."

¹¹ Then Shechem said to Dinah's father and brothers, "Let me find favor in your eyes, and I will give you whatever you ask. ¹² Make the price for the bride and the gift I am to bring as great as you like, and I'll pay whatever you ask me. Only give me the girl as my wife."

¹³ Because their sister Dinah had been defiled, Jacob's sons replied deceitfully as they spoke to Shechem and his father Hamor. ¹⁴ They said to them, "We can't do such a thing; we can't give our sister to a man who is not circumcised. That would be a disgrace to us. ¹⁵ We will give our consent to you on one condition only: that you become like us by circumcising all your males. ¹⁶ Then we will give you our daughters and take your daughters for ourselves. We'll settle among you and become one people with you. ¹⁷ But if you will not agree to be circumcised, we'll take our sister and go."

¹⁸ Their proposal seemed good to Hamor and his son Shechem. ¹⁹ The young man, who was the most honored of all his father's household, lost no time in doing what they said, because he was delighted with Jacob's daughter. ²⁰ So Hamor and his son Shechem went to the gate of their city to speak to their fellow townsmen. ²¹ "These men are friendly toward us," they said. "Let them live in our land and trade in it; the land has plenty of room for them. We can marry their daughters and they can marry ours. ²² But the men will consent to live with us as one people only on the condition that our males be circumcised, as they themselves are. ²³ Won't their livestock, their property and all their other animals become ours? So let us give our consent to them, and they will settle among us."

²⁴ All the men who went out of the city gate agreed with Hamor and his son Shechem, and every male in the city was circumcised.

²⁵ Three days later, while all of them were still in pain, two of Jacob's sons, Simeon and Levi, Dinah's brothers, took their swords and attacked the unsuspecting city, killing every male. ²⁶ They put Hamor and his son Shechem to the sword and took Dinah from Shechem's house and left. ²⁷ The sons of Jacob came upon the dead bodies and looted the city where their sister had been defiled. ²⁸ They seized their flocks and herds and donkeys and everything else of theirs in the city and out in the fields. ²⁹ They carried off all their wealth and all their women and children, taking as plunder everything in the houses.

³⁰ Then Jacob said to Simeon and Levi, "You have brought trouble on me by making me a stench to the Canaanites and Perizzites, the people living in this land. We are few in number, and if they join forces against me and attack me, I and my household will be destroyed."

³¹ But they replied, "Should he have treated our sister like a prostitute?"

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Sorry for the things I have done.

Passing by wind,
I thought all would fade away.
Smithed in fire,
I thought my heart would be strong.
The pain I have inflicted,
The tears rolling down your eyes,
Till this day I remember the hurt you've experienced.

Though we are worlds apart,
You would always be a part of my world.
I dream not of you returning,
But hope of joy in your life.

My pain is not immediate,
it grow as the year pass.
Guilt and regret overwhelm me,
I wish I did nothing,
Yet I can't change history.

Hate me if you would,
I'd say,
Sorry for the things I have done.

Economic Recession: Rich or Poor

1 Timothy 6:17-19

17Command those who are rich in this present world not to be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth , which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in God, who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment. 18Command them to do good, to be rich in good deeds, and to be generous and willing to share. 19In this way they will lay up treasures for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age, so that they may take hold of the life that is truly life.



Matthew 6:19-21

"19Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal; 20but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

Not a dead blog!

this entry is to inform you, that this blog is not dead! heh
have not been blogging for a long while. coming soon! (: i've saved it in draft. (:

Temptations, How Satan tempts Us.

1John 2:15-17
"Do not love the world nor the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes and the boastful pride of life, is not from the Father, but is from the world. The world is passing away, and also its lusts; but the one who does the will of God lives forever."

Starting from Genesis, when Adam and Eve sinned against God, the world was given to satan. Whatever that belongs to the world, belongs to satan. 2 examples will be cited to help in understanding the way temptation works in our lives.

3 "Classical" ways of Temptation
1)Lust of the Flesh
2)Lust of the Eyes
3)Boastful Pride of Life


1)Lust of the Flesh
The lust of the flesh includes the desires of things that we crave for, be it food which seems so sinless to undesirable things. Satan uses these things that at times we are deprived from for a while, to attack our obedience to God. Hence, causing us to sin.

2)Lust of the Eyes
Lust of the Eyes refers to the desires of what we "see", alternatively what we think is right. When we submit to this temptation, we choose to ignore God's word, following our own way. In any cases, it will cause us to defy God and disobedience is a sin! This temptation is closely linked to pride of the life.

3)Boastful Pride of the Life
What boastful pride of the life means is - to be the god of our own life. Thinking that we are better than others, including God when it comes to ignoring God's word. When we play god in our own lives, we are saying, 'God, I am better than You, I do not need to follow Your word." and then we disobey God. Sin again. See how 'we see' and pride are closely linked.




Example 1: "Case Study of Adam and Eve's fall"
Serpent tempted Eve into eating the fruit which God forbidden Adam and Eve to eat. Eve, being incited by satan to eat, started to crave for the fruit she was deprived from(falling into the temptation of lust of the flesh). When serpent asked "Has God said, 'You shall not eat from any tree of the garden'?" Satan twisted God's word into "any" instead of "one", that is the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Eve, replied with distorted God's word, "God has said, 'You shall not eat from it or touch it, or you shall die." God did not say 'touch it', Eve did. That allowed satan to attack Eve again, which is the lust of the eyes.

Satan told Eve that "You surely will not die!" , "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened and you will be like God, knowing good and evil."(stirring up the pride within Eve to be like God, pride of the life) Eve, ignoring God's word that disobedience will lead to death, followed her thought which she learned from the deception from satan, chose to eat the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil.
"When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for good and pleasing to the eye(lust of the eyes), and also desirable for gaining wisdom(pride of life), she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it." Genesis 3:6


Example 2: Jesus Overcoming the 3temptations during the 40days Fasting
Satan challenged Jesus through the weak point of His hunger, saying "If You are the Son of God, command that these stones become bread." Satan is trying to tempt Jesus into the lust of the flesh, that is to satisfy the need to have food when it is not the time for Him to have(He is fasting!). Satan wanted Jesus to disobey God by eating when He is not suppose to be. Jesus rebuked, "For it is written: 'Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God.'" Jesus did not add words like Eve did but cited God's word clearly. Hence, satan can't find another loophole to attack Jesus but to bring Him to elsewhere, highest point of the temple in the holy city.

Satan taunted Jesus to prove to him that He is the Son of God, "throw Yourself down, For it is written: He will command His angels concerning You, and they will lift You up in their hands, so that You will not strike Your foot against a stone.' " Satan is trying to lead Jesus into His own thinking, ignoring God's words, thus into the temptation of the lust of the eyes. Jesus, however, did not want to disobey God with His own thoughts, rebuked satan knowing that God said do not test Him. "For it is also written: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test."

Satan knowing Jesus did not fall into the temptation of the lust of the eyes, led Jesus to a very high mountain and attacked Jesus with Boastful Pride of the Life. Satan, having possession of the world after Adam and Eve sinned against God, offered the world to Jesus if He bow down to him. Tempting Jesus with a possession He can proudly show off to others. "All this I will give You," he said, "if You will bow down and worship me."

Can you see how desperate satan is when he try to tempt Jesus into disobeying God, by offering the world that he has. And in his desperateness, trading such a ridiculous deal when Jesus already owned the universe. Jesus knew the evil scheme of satan, wanting Jesus to worship other god, rebuked satan saying, "Away from Me, Satan! For it is written: 'Worship the Lord your God, and serve Him only."


After reading these 2examples, see how satan works to tempt us. Lets be watchful not to fall into them, reading God's words and citing them without twisting God's words.

Referrence taken from "The Bondage Breaker" Youth Edition by Neil T. Anderson and Dave Park. Do grab a hold of this book!

I know dear Lord
that You love me;
You've proved it so
at Calvary
My love for You
is proved, You've said,
But my obedience
to Your Word.

I'll trust You Lord
when I can't see
the way ahead
that's best for me.
I know You'll guide
me all the way.
Just tell me Lord
and I'll obey.

I put my life
in Your dear hands.
With joy I'll follow
Your commands.
I know it's only
by Your grace,
I will endure
and run the race.

And when I look
into Your eyes
that burn with love
and holy fire,
my deep desire
is that You'll see
You truly had
Your way with me.


-Joy Dawson

Weird Spiritual Encounter

Spiritual Possession, how real is it in our lives? To some it is just pure imagination, some think scientifically - mental illness. And when it happens around sleeping hours, some say it is dream or nightmare. I am sound, I am not imagining and it was just a few minutes to rest, how could it be dreams or nightmare.

On 5th Aug morning, 5am, i was about to sleep. Hitting the sack, I was ready for a good rest till morning 9plus, or 10plus. Yet, the moment when I closed my eyes, bad visions appeared before me. Gradually I was being oppressed. The force was great, I could barely breathed. I shouted for my Lord and tried to pray in tongues but I failed. I was hardly in control over my body but my mind was clear. The room was in complete darkness, i tried shouting but my voice faded into the air. I tried commanding it to leave in the name of Jesus but I can't say the word "Jesus". I tried very hard, it just couldn't get out of my mouth. My voice started to change, it wasn't me. I know I was possessed by some evil spirit. I was in struggle, struggle to gain control over my body and get out of this situation. I do not know who was in front of me, but a voice came, "Who will you choose?" I shouted, "I CHOOSE MY LORD JES.......US." That voice that came within me struggled, in agony. I kept shouting "I CHOOSE MY LORD JE.......SUS.." and keep calling out to His name, "Jes.....us....."

I know that was the only way to save me, in His name the demons will have to leave, and only demons can't pronounce His name for it is with great authority. I went against the dark force, "Jes...us, Jes...us" it was all I can do until I felt a relief and the darkness was gone. But what I saw really shocked me. shadow of the curtain moving from half of my room to the right side. I mean, i saw half of the room filled with the shadow and the shadow slowly moving back to original place, which is only 1/5 of the room. And my curtain was moving, in an air con room with no fan, without the air from the air con blowing at it, it moved. I look at the time and it was 6 o'clock in the morning.

You may not believe it, neither will I expect you to believe it. But I have no choice but to believe it, and I choose to believe my Lord's name saved my life on that morning.

Finally decided to write something here after a month plus. Well, many things had happened, and my spiritual walk had been up and down. Just when I thought I would sense God much clearly before I leave for Taiwan, it turned out to be otherwise. For a month plus, I could not hear or sense Him clearly and closely as I did before that. But it didn't seem like God has forsaken me and I know He will not. Perservering through it, keeping the hope that He is with me and will lead me through, I've made it to Taiwan.



Upon reaching Taiwan, somehow things started to change. Day by day i felt closer to God, for I have no one here to depend on but Him. It seems like the previous experience I had was a deception from satan that I am distant from God and leading me from glorifying God. God spoke and affirmed His faithfulness through Deuteronomy 31:6 "Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or tremble at them, for the LORD your God is the one who goes with you He will not fail you or forsake you." and Hebrews 13:5 "Let your manner of living be without covetousness, and be content with such things as ye have. For He hath said, "I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee". Testimonies followed after I am led closer to Him again. I have then learned from Him many things which I have been blinded from.

Our bodies, actions and thoughts, they can be a tool to do great things or evil. Satan like to deceive us using words in our minds like "I am, I will be, ...". Often he led us to sin and then putting thoughts into our mind like "I am sinful.." Just like Paul mentioned in Romans 7:15-25, "Now if I do that which I would not do, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me." Our bodies are tools to the spiritual realm. Our soul chooses to seve either the good or the evil.

Now then, temptations. It is like a rotten apple dipped in chocolate: appealing to the eyes, destruction for our bodies, assuming the body is the soul. Last word, by the fear of the Lord, one departs from evil.

Amazingly Designer

Earth : Click to watch this video

Giraffe : Click to watch this video

Life cannot be created with all the ingredients of a body : Frog Soup Example

Watch Design Vs Human Design : Click to watch this video


Additional discovery. :P
Mt Sinai : Where God descended on fire and gave to Moses the 10Commandments



I thank God for such amazing designs on all things that we have around us. Things inclusive of our bodies, animals, earth and etc; things that no scientists can fabricate. Lovely!

Revelation of the Time

The Time is near, more signs have been fulfilled and completed.

Revelation 6:3-4
(Second Seal: Conflicts on Earth)
“ When He opened the second seal, I heard the second living creature saying, ‘Come and see.’
And another horse, fiery red went out. And it was granted to the one who sat on it to take peace from the earth,
and that people should kill one another; and there be given to him a great sword.”

Upon this verse was given the understanding of war and terrorism. ‘people killing one another’ has been fulfilled.



Revelation 6:5-6
(Third Seal: Scarcity on Earth)
“When He opened the third seal, I heard the third living creature say, ‘Come and see.’
And I looked, and behold, a black horse and he who sat on it had a pair of scales in his hand.
And I heard a voice in the midst of the four living creatures saying, ‘A quart of wheat for a denarius,
And three quart of barley for a denarius; and do not harm the oil and the wine.’”

Food scarcity can be seen in Myanmar after cyclone strike and Africa. Together with global warming and floods leading to failures in traditional farming, all these led to scarcity of food on earth. Yet for wine, there is no crisis except that they are over producing it.
Here’s a video by a Norway man in 2007, predicting the shortage of food in 2008.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wFIlVkDEwV4
Does he mean Myanmar food shortage for 17days?


Revelation 6:7-8
(Fourth Seal: Widespread Death on Earth)
“When He opened the fourth seal, I heard the voice of the fourth living creature saying, ‘Come and see.’
And I looked, and behold, a pale horse. And the name of him who sat on it was Death, and Hades followed with him.
And power was given to them over a fourth of the earth, to kill with sword, with hunger, with death, and by the beasts of the earth.”

China earthquake, Myanmar cyclone, SARS, terrorism, sudden death during sleep and even body producing flame that burn themselves up, and animal attacking human; they fulfilled the scriptures.
http://attack.igorilla.com/ contains information on animals attacking man, killing them as written in the Bible.



Revelation 6:12
“I looked when He opened the sixth seal, and behold, there was a great earthquake;
and the sun became black as sackcloth of hair, and the moon became like blood.”

Earthquakes are taking place all over the world, 2004 Sumatra earthquake reached a magnitude of 9.1,
while the highest recorded earthquake magnitude was 9.5 at Chile, in 1960.
Total solar eclipse is expected to be on 1August 2008, last lunar eclipse has happened in 27October 2004. The bible mentioned a great earthquake, sun became black and moon became red, I have yet to know if all happens at the same time or separate timing.



Revelation 6:16
“And the kings of the earth, the great men, the rich men, the commanders, the mighty men, every slave and every free man, hid themselves in the caves and in the rocks of the mountains, and said to the mountains and rocks, ‘Fall on us and hide us from the face of Him who sits on the throne and from the wrath of the Lamb! For the great day of His wrath has come, and who is able to stand?”

The Doom’s Day Cult members have already started fulfilling this part stated in the bible.



Revelation 8:7
(First Trumpet: Vegetation Struck)
“The first angel sounded. And hail and fire followed, mingled with blood, and they were thrown to the earth; and a third of the trees were burned up, and all green grass was burned up.”

This verse reminded me of the forest fire happened many times in the past, and even in Singapore, Yishun grass hill was burnt. But a greater one is yet to come.


Revelation 8:8
(Second Trumpet: The Seas Struck)
”Then the second angel sounded: And something like a great mountain burning with fire was thrown into the sea, and a third of the sea became blood; and a third of the living creature in the sea died, and a third of the ships were destroyed.”

Tsunami, an unusual large sea wave produced by seaquake(earthquake on sea bed) or undersea volcanic eruption. It could be Year2004 Tsunami, which killed many and destroyed many ships and living creatures in the sea at a magnitude of 9.1; or it could mean another Tsunami to come.

The Day is near, brethrens, “watch, stand fast, be brave, be strong.”

Thank You Jesus

Lead Me Lord




Worthy is the Lamb




Lead me to the Cross



All For Love

Wildness of God

Interestingly noted by Brent Curtis & John Eldredge in their book "The Sacred Romance", they pointed out the wild side of God when dealing in our lives. It intrigued me to find out this aspect of God and wonder why it even happens. Taking example of Job's walk with God, finding out how God even allowed Satan to enter Job's life, to almost destroy him. Job is a blameless, upright, a man who fears God and shun evil. Job 1:8 (⁸ Then the Lord asked Satan, “Have you noticed my servant Job? He is the finest man in all the earth. He is blameless—a man of complete integrity. He fears God and stays away from evil.”)

Why would God do such things to him? Do read Job 1:6-12; Job 2:1-10 to find out what happened to Job and what did God do in his life. God allowed satan to kill Job's children and destroy his property, then allowing satan to again inflict sores and pain unto Job. Yet in Job 2:10, it speaks a lot as Job rebukes even his wife in order to protect the faith that he has in God.


Also in Jeremiah 20:7-9
" ⁷ O Lord, you misled me,
and I allowed myself to be misled.
You are stronger than I am,
and you overpowered me.
Now I am mocked every day;
everyone laughs at me.
⁸ When I speak, the words burst out.
“Violence and destruction!” I shout.
So these messages from the Lord
have made me a household joke.
⁹ But if I say I’ll never mention the Lord
or speak in his name,
his word burns in my heart like a fire.
It’s like a fire in my bones!
I am worn out trying to hold it in!
I can’t do it! "

It seems like God has placed Jeremiah in a situation where he is in bad shape and still cannot get out of it. God also left Abraham with his knife raised and almost killed Isaac; He left Joseph in Egyptians' prison for years; He allowed Jesus to be crucified on the cross. Why does He does all these when He has the ability to just twist the whole scenario around?

In Job's walk with God, it did not appear as smooth as it deems to be. Yet Job's faith is so strong, despite so many things against him, he chose to trust in God. Abraham too, choosing to honor God, knowing that the son is given through Him and and be saved through Him too, did not cease to lift the knife up. Joseph, believing that God is with Him is true and right about his faith, that God helped him at a right timing. In Jesus' case, it appeared as late as Jesus died on the cross. Yet, it was just the beginning of the big story of this Faith. In Luke 24:44-47, it explained that everything must be fulfilled so that God's plan can work.

We are all living to fulfill this purpose, the work of God. For these people and Jesus, what happened to them may seem to be least expected since they are righteous, blameless, and aways loving God. God chose them to work this aspect of the work, causing them to suffer on earth, but exalted Jesus high above all creation on earth. To view it in a story form, God's story has His climax and downfall. God chose Job, Jeremiah, Abraham and Jesus to play the climax, where the least expected occurs and leading to a downfall. Yet with this climax, the whole story was made perfect in God's directing.

Therefore, trust that God has a plan for you, though it may be bad, but with God, you are never out of His perfect story! (:

Deception of the World Part I

Deceptions of the World Part I:
Today as I was doing my quiet time, God spoke a lot regarding one of the greatest deceptions of the world : Lust. I had pen it down as God revealed to me the truth behind it.

Ephesian 4:14
"that we should no longer be children tossed to and fro and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the trickery of men, in the cunning craftiness by which they lie in wait to deceive."

This verse reminded me of the sermon on 5April 2008, that the world is a place of deception

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Ephesian 4:23
"and be renewed in the spirit of your mind."

As taught during the sermon, we should renew our mind in order to remove our old conduct.

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As I was showering, God spoke about the greatest lie for this world, that is LUST. Cases upon cases of raping, sex scandals and with media promoting sex, and more places like clubs and pubs that causes intimacy and lust to occur. No doubt the world is living in debauchery. It is leading us away from God's commandment,

Galatians 5:19-21
^"19Now the works of the flesh are manifest, and they are these: adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,
²⁰idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, quarreling, rivalry, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,
²¹envying, murders, drunkenness, revelings, and such like. About these things I tell you again, as I have also told you in times past, that those who do such things shall not inherit the Kingdom of God."

and Romans 8:5-8
^"5For those who are according to the flesh mind the things of the flesh; but those who are according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit.
⁶For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace,
⁷because the carnal mind is enmity against God, for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be.
⁸So then, those who are in the flesh cannot please God."

Ephesians 4:22
^"22that ye put off, concerning your former manner of living, the old man which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts, "

Indeed, this lust is deceitful, causing us to think it is alright since the world is doing so; that there is not much fault to release our stress ad respond to our physical or biological need. WRONG! FALSE ASSUMPTION AND UNTRUE REASONS.

1 Thessalonian 4:17
"For God did not call us to uncleanness, but in Holiness."

It is therefore stated, James 1:14-16
"¹⁴But every man is tempted when he is drawn away by his own lust and enticed. ¹⁵Then when lust hath conceived, it brings forth sin; and sin, when it is finished, brings forth death. ¹⁶Do not be deceived, my beloved brethren."

and in 1 John 2:15-17
"Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him For all that is in the world - the LUST of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life - is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever. "

Indeed the world is passing away, and lust which belongs to the world will pass away together with the world. Let us then, not be deceived but to set our focus on the eternal life that God promised. Galatian 5:21 : "About these things I tell you again, as I have also told you in times past, that those who do such things shall not inherit the Kingdom of God."

I thank God for telling me all these and granting me the energy to pen it down and blog it even down I am really really tired at this point of time. Thank God for showing me so many verses to show me the truth. I felt that Part II is going to be pride. I shall wait for God to tell me and then I will pen it down and blog it again. (: Hallelujah!

1 April 2008

Lord my God, You have fulfilled Your Promise, granting me my prayer, that is allowing me to hear Your word. You had told me in advance, converting my sorrow and worries to joy. Having the seed of faith and Your word being spread, that I know my 'bound served Your will. There my joy remains, that Your presence is in my life.

24 March 2008

As I read Acts 24 today, I felt God is telling me something. I was confined for falling in late. I was troubled and asked God to help me, at least to allow me to attend church on Saturday. Yet when I read on, the last phrase caught me: "left Paul bound." Am I planned to get confined? After reading that and somehow God comforted me, telling me that I can share the Gospel during my extra duty. Perhaps there is a plan, I shall not doubt but trust in God if that is really the case. Lord, the timing is Yours but I still want to pray for Saturday. Lord I know You have a word for me. Lord, I want to hear it, please allow me to come. But Lord, let Your will be done on Your own timing. In Jesus' most precious name, Amen.

Freed from Deception

Yesterday's sermon was part II for the previous week, telling us that satan uses deception to deceive us, then dominate us before destroying us. Part II showed me clearly on how satan deceive us: that is through psychological effect like that of a chained elephant.

FYI: When a young elephant is chained with metal chain by their tamers, and being unable to break the chain, she felt weak against it and eventually giving up breaking the chain. The chain is then replaced by a rope when the elephants grow up. However, with the mighty strength they now possess, they will never break the rope, thinking that they are still as well as the past. Now that they have been "set free" from the metal chain, they remain "chained" until they realize they are freed.

Satan uses this method to chain us up, causing us to be his slave of sin and death. When Jesus died on the cross for us, we have been set free from then on. Likewise to the elephants' case, we thought that we are still chained and not freed, we failed to walk out of it and continue becoming slaves to sin and death.

As I was searching for the verseThen you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." on www.bible.com, God showed me 2more verses.

First verse was Romans 6:22
"But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves to God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life. "

and second verse was Romans 8:2
"because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death."

Now I have the confidence, the truth and authority(Luke 10:19), I will be able to detect the deception of the evil and walk in light with God. Hallelujah!

Satan defeated, Glory be to God

Glory be to God again! On Wednesday and Thursday, I was troubled by 2issues and the battle in the spiritual realm was so real that I could feel it.

First, it was my duty on Friday morning till Saturday morning. I was told by the duty forecast in charge that I have to forward my duty due to my new course coming up and he scheduled me on Friday when I already have one on Wednesday. I was worried that it will be very tiring for me on Saturday and I may lose concentration during sermon. I prayed to God for strength and energy during sermon. But God showed His mercy and grace, when I randomly asked the initial duty personnel whose duty I am taking over, he said he would be glad to do on Friday. That means I will not be exhausted and feel tired, lest be distract from hearing God's words. How great and wonderfully God worked!

Second issue was my duty on Saturday Commissioning Parade. I was activated for duty on Saturday, right after my duty. Somehow I felt that something is wrong in the spiritual realm, and satan is pulling me away from God. I fasted, prayed and placed my faith in God, believing that when we try to reach out for Him, He will not reject us and will help us to be with Him.

This is something scary: on Thursday night, when I was on my way back home, I was so desperate because I really wanted to go church and as you know, it is hard for me to excuse from duty, I decided to get GO to pray for me. Just before I type the message and send, satan taunted me. "why are you so weak? why do you need people to pray for you? you can pray on your own too?" 3times he taunted me, I chose to walk off and sent the message. As I walk, I thought to myself: "yes, so what I am weak, I am never strong. I am weak but I was made strong through God, it is God who made me strong." I was also being reminded by Holy Spirit of "The true vine". "I am the vine, you are the branches. ... For without Me you can do nothing." Upon thinking of that, I felt that the victory trumpet has been blown. Yet I do not know the result whether can I be excused from duty on Saturday.

On Friday itself, I approached my superior to tell him I have church and I cannot go for the commissioning parade. My colleague was beside me and satan worked through him, adding words that may prevent me from coming to God. Then my superior told me to find the guy who passed the duty to me. I was kind of irritated when I approach him, believing that he dump his duty to me because he want to spend time with his girlfriend.

Here is where my pride came in, I thought to myself that I am spending time with God, doing better things than you who spend time with a girl. But I realized my mistake a while later and I chose to humble myself down, telling myself that he may have other agenda and I should not be so judgmental. So we approached our superior together and tell him we both can not make it on Saturday. My superior ask me to check with the other duty personnel and see if he can manage with only 2people. I believe till this point the battle is going on between God and satan. While satan is trying to pull me away from God, God worked in every detail to pull me to Him. I received a reply from my friend and he said he is fine with only 2people for the duty.

Hallelujah, satan failed again. A loser fighting against a big Champ, without the power of God he can do nothing too. Besides, God will never help him with evil for our God is Holy and Just! haha. Thank You, Father in Heaven. I am able to come on Saturday!!

Glory be to God

Here to glorify God, to share how much God have worked in my life. Since the last post in December, there have been many changes in my life. For people who knew the alternate side of me; I was an alcoholic, getting myself drunk in alcohol. I was into clubbing, falling into lust and self denial, escaping from the reality for the night. Yes, that was me after a downfall in my life when someone whom I treasured dearly left me. I picked myself up and fell, which was explained in my previous post. Now, here I am to tell you, that through God's grace I picked myself up, getting rid of the addiction and away from the temptation of lust. Though many times I crave to drink, but through God's power I rejected many offers to club and drinking.

Also, recently I found myself walking with God more closely, a prayer answered. I desire more of this, I want to be with God, even if the road down is tough and I may fail many times. I place my faith in Him believing He has a greater plan in my life for me. I have seen through many things, things in my life that does not need much attention for they are things that will pass when the time comes. I have found better matter to focus, that is the work of God, salvation throughout the world and spreading His words to all nations. My days on earth ain't long, I don't have eternity to do them, I have my life to follow God's command, "GO, and make disciples of all nations". I am spending this time to learn instead of wasting it on unfruitful relationships, addictions and other side focus. I am too young to talk about relationship, I am leaving it to God.

I will depend on God in everything I do, I will not give up till the last breath. Even if everything is bad for me, I have CONFIDENCE in God that He will OVERCOME with me. Lord, please guide me yo!! (:

21dec

i will not give up pursuing God, even if i keep stumbling and got bruised all over, i will stand and walk again. God, i may take longer time, please wait for me.

18Decemeber

it has been a long while since i blog. for the past few weeks, too many things had happened in my life. good and bad, they all come. i asked myself, where am i now... this blog is suppose to inspire others towards God but this entry is gonna be different from the rest, it's gonna be about me.

for the past few weeks, i did not turn up for church a few times due to work commitment. my spiritual life came to a downfall. i started skipping quiet time, i prayed less often, my heart hardened and i felt less of God. i am turning towards the world.

i got back to clubbing and drinking, to fill up the emptiness in my heart. this emptiness was once filled up by her, who took a part of me and left. memories of her came back to me these few weeks, followed by heartache and anger. on top of this mixed feeling, the thought of another her who treasured me yet i chose to leave, stirs up even more emotions from within.

a little of the story, i met A and we started off as a young couple. soon it ended and i got into drinking and clubbing, hoping to find an escape through these. 3months later, i met B. she was always there for me, going the extra miles for the relationship. i was affected and we got together. she was so nice, accepting the fact that i can't forget A, she even tried to help me get over A. yet, we broke up cuz i can't take the stress. it was unfair to her either way, be it breaking up or not breaking up.

thank you mx, this song is for you.


on top of that, stress at work. items missing and i was blamed for it when i was not even around the site. i was accused of not doing my job when in fact, i have worked till my injury got worsen. buggers at work.

i am ending with this last piece of bad news, my physiotherapist said that i can no longer carry on my shooting.