Ken's Spiritual Journal

2010-04-21T00:49:00.002+08:00

Sometime I wonder why do I fall into the same old sin and never seem to be able to get out of it. Often I put the blame on myself, not recognizing that my enemy sin prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. I reflect on the things I do, I change the way things are done so that I may not fall into the same old thing. BUT one thing that has not changed, my LOVE FOR GOD did not change.

If I can love God as much as the Dinah's brother loves her, I would go all out to eliminate sin who defiled my body which is also the temple of God!

Genesis 34

Dinah and the Shechemites

¹ Now Dinah, the daughter Leah had borne to Jacob, went out to visit the women of the land. ² When Shechem son of Hamor the Hivite, the ruler of that area, saw her, he took her and violated her. ³ His heart was drawn to Dinah daughter of Jacob, and he loved the girl and spoke tenderly to her. ⁴ And Shechem said to his father Hamor, "Get me this girl as my wife."

⁵ When Jacob heard that his daughter Dinah had been defiled, his sons were in the fields with his livestock; so he kept quiet about it until they came home.

⁶ Then Shechem's father Hamor went out to talk with Jacob. ⁷ Now Jacob's sons had come in from the fields as soon as they heard what had happened. They were filled with grief and fury, because Shechem had done a disgraceful thing in Israel by lying with Jacob's daughter—a thing that should not be done.

⁸ But Hamor said to them, "My son Shechem has his heart set on your daughter. Please give her to him as his wife. ⁹ Intermarry with us; give us your daughters and take our daughters for yourselves. ¹⁰ You can settle among us; the land is open to you. Live in it, trade in it, and acquire property in it."

¹¹ Then Shechem said to Dinah's father and brothers, "Let me find favor in your eyes, and I will give you whatever you ask. ¹² Make the price for the bride and the gift I am to bring as great as you like, and I'll pay whatever you ask me. Only give me the girl as my wife."

¹³ Because their sister Dinah had been defiled, Jacob's sons replied deceitfully as they spoke to Shechem and his father Hamor. ¹⁴ They said to them, "We can't do such a thing; we can't give our sister to a man who is not circumcised. That would be a disgrace to us. ¹⁵ We will give our consent to you on one condition only: that you become like us by circumcising all your males. ¹⁶ Then we will give you our daughters and take your daughters for ourselves. We'll settle among you and become one people with you. ¹⁷ But if you will not agree to be circumcised, we'll take our sister and go."

¹⁸ Their proposal seemed good to Hamor and his son Shechem. ¹⁹ The young man, who was the most honored of all his father's household, lost no time in doing what they said, because he was delighted with Jacob's daughter. ²⁰ So Hamor and his son Shechem went to the gate of their city to speak to their fellow townsmen. ²¹ "These men are friendly toward us," they said. "Let them live in our land and trade in it; the land has plenty of room for them. We can marry their daughters and they can marry ours. ²² But the men will consent to live with us as one people only on the condition that our males be circumcised, as they themselves are. ²³ Won't their livestock, their property and all their other animals become ours? So let us give our consent to them, and they will settle among us."

²⁴ All the men who went out of the city gate agreed with Hamor and his son Shechem, and every male in the city was circumcised.

²⁵ Three days later, while all of them were still in pain, two of Jacob's sons, Simeon and Levi, Dinah's brothers, took their swords and attacked the unsuspecting city, killing every male. ²⁶ They put Hamor and his son Shechem to the sword and took Dinah from Shechem's house and left. ²⁷ The sons of Jacob came upon the dead bodies and looted the city where their sister had been defiled. ²⁸ They seized their flocks and herds and donkeys and everything else of theirs in the city and out in the fields. ²⁹ They carried off all their wealth and all their women and children, taking as plunder everything in the houses.

³⁰ Then Jacob said to Simeon and Levi, "You have brought trouble on me by making me a stench to the Canaanites and Perizzites, the people living in this land. We are few in number, and if they join forces against me and attack me, I and my household will be destroyed."

³¹ But they replied, "Should he have treated our sister like a prostitute?"

Sorry for the things I have done.

2010-01-06T13:58:00.002+08:00

Passing by wind,
I thought all would fade away.
Smithed in fire,
I thought my heart would be strong.
The pain I have inflicted,
The tears rolling down your eyes,
Till this day I remember the hurt you've experienced.

Though we are worlds apart,
You would always be a part of my world.
I dream not of you returning,
But hope of joy in your life.

My pain is not immediate,
it grow as the year pass.
Guilt and regret overwhelm me,
I wish I did nothing,
Yet I can't change history.

Hate me if you would,
I'd say,
Sorry for the things I have done.

Economic Recession: Rich or Poor

2009-03-20T01:57:00.002+08:00

1 Timothy 6:17-19

17Command those who are rich in this present world not to be arrogant nor to put their hope in wealth , which is so uncertain, but to put their hope in God, who richly provides us with everything for our enjoyment. 18Command them to do good, to be rich in good deeds, and to be generous and willing to share. 19In this way they will lay up treasures for themselves as a firm foundation for the coming age, so that they may take hold of the life that is truly life.

Matthew 6:19-21

"19Do not lay up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy and where thieves break in and steal; 20but lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust destroys and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also."

Not a dead blog!

2008-12-04T00:05:00.001+08:00

this entry is to inform you, that this blog is not dead! heh
have not been blogging for a long while. coming soon! (: i've saved it in draft. (:

Temptations, How Satan tempts Us.

2008-09-29T20:32:00.005+08:00

1John 2:15-17
"Do not love the world nor the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes and the boastful pride of life, is not from the Father, but is from the world. The world is passing away, and also its lusts; but the one who does the will of God lives forever."

Starting from Genesis, when Adam and Eve sinned against God, the world was given to satan. Whatever that belongs to the world, belongs to satan. 2 examples will be cited to help in understanding the way temptation works in our lives.

3 "Classical" ways of Temptation
1)Lust of the Flesh
2)Lust of the Eyes
3)Boastful Pride of Life

1)Lust of the Flesh
The lust of the flesh includes the desires of things that we crave for, be it food which seems so sinless to undesirable things. Satan uses these things that at times we are deprived from for a while, to attack our obedience to God. Hence, causing us to sin.

2)Lust of the Eyes
Lust of the Eyes refers to the desires of what we "see", alternatively what we think is right. When we submit to this temptation, we choose to ignore God's word, following our own way. In any cases, it will cause us to defy God and disobedience is a sin! This temptation is closely linked to pride of the life.

3)Boastful Pride of the Life
What boastful pride of the life means is - to be the god of our own life. Thinking that we are better than others, including God when it comes to ignoring God's word. When we play god in our own lives, we are saying, 'God, I am better than You, I do not need to follow Your word." and then we disobey God. Sin again. See how 'we see' and pride are closely linked.

Example 1: "Case Study of Adam and Eve's fall"
Serpent tempted Eve into eating the fruit which God forbidden Adam and Eve to eat. Eve, being incited by satan to eat, started to crave for the fruit she was deprived from(falling into the temptation of lust of the flesh). When serpent asked "Has God said, 'You shall not eat from any tree of the garden'?" Satan twisted God's word into "any" instead of "one", that is the tree of knowledge of good and evil. Eve, replied with distorted God's word, "God has said, 'You shall not eat from it or touch it, or you shall die." God did not say 'touch it', Eve did. That allowed satan to attack Eve again, which is the lust of the eyes.

Satan told Eve that "You surely will not die!" , "For God knows that when you eat of it your eyes will be opened and you will be like God, knowing good and evil."(stirring up the pride within Eve to be like God, pride of the life) Eve, ignoring God's word that disobedience will lead to death, followed her thought which she learned from the deception from satan, chose to eat the fruit of the tree of knowledge of good and evil.
"When the woman saw that the fruit of the tree was good for good and pleasing to the eye(lust of the eyes), and also desirable for gaining wisdom(pride of life), she took some and ate it. She also gave some to her husband, who was with her, and he ate it." Genesis 3:6

Example 2: Jesus Overcoming the 3temptations during the 40days Fasting
Satan challenged Jesus through the weak point of His hunger, saying "If You are the Son of God, command that these stones become bread." Satan is trying to tempt Jesus into the lust of the flesh, that is to satisfy the need to have food when it is not the time for Him to have(He is fasting!). Satan wanted Jesus to disobey God by eating when He is not suppose to be. Jesus rebuked, "For it is written: 'Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that proceeds out of the mouth of God.'" Jesus did not add words like Eve did but cited God's word clearly. Hence, satan can't find another loophole to attack Jesus but to bring Him to elsewhere, highest point of the temple in the holy city.

Satan taunted Jesus to prove to him that He is the Son of God, "throw Yourself down, For it is written: He will command His angels concerning You, and they will lift You up in their hands, so that You will not strike Your foot against a stone.' " Satan is trying to lead Jesus into His own thinking, ignoring God's words, thus into the temptation of the lust of the eyes. Jesus, however, did not want to disobey God with His own thoughts, rebuked satan knowing that God said do not test Him. "For it is also written: 'Do not put the Lord your God to the test."

Satan knowing Jesus did not fall into the temptation of the lust of the eyes, led Jesus to a very high mountain and attacked Jesus with Boastful Pride of the Life. Satan, having possession of the world after Adam and Eve sinned against God, offered the world to Jesus if He bow down to him. Tempting Jesus with a possession He can proudly show off to others. "All this I will give You," he said, "if You will bow down and worship me."

Can you see how desperate satan is when he try to tempt Jesus into disobeying God, by offering the world that he has. And in his desperateness, trading such a ridiculous deal when Jesus already owned the universe. Jesus knew the evil scheme of satan, wanting Jesus to worship other god, rebuked satan saying, "Away from Me, Satan! For it is written: 'Worship the Lord your God, and serve Him only."

After reading these 2examples, see how satan works to tempt us. Lets be watchful not to fall into them, reading God's words and citing them without twisting God's words.

Referrence taken from "The Bondage Breaker" Youth Edition by Neil T. Anderson and Dave Park. Do grab a hold of this book!

2008-08-26T01:26:00.003+08:00

I know dear Lord
that You love me;
You've proved it so
at Calvary
My love for You
is proved, You've said,
But my obedience
to Your Word.

I'll trust You Lord
when I can't see
the way ahead
that's best for me.
I know You'll guide
me all the way.
Just tell me Lord
and I'll obey.

I put my life
in Your dear hands.
With joy I'll follow
Your commands.
I know it's only
by Your grace,
I will endure
and run the race.

And when I look
into Your eyes
that burn with love
and holy fire,
my deep desire
is that You'll see
You truly had
Your way with me.

-Joy Dawson

Weird Spiritual Encounter

2008-08-08T01:09:00.003+08:00

Spiritual Possession, how real is it in our lives? To some it is just pure imagination, some think scientifically - mental illness. And when it happens around sleeping hours, some say it is dream or nightmare. I am sound, I am not imagining and it was just a few minutes to rest, how could it be dreams or nightmare.

On 5th Aug morning, 5am, i was about to sleep. Hitting the sack, I was ready for a good rest till morning 9plus, or 10plus. Yet, the moment when I closed my eyes, bad visions appeared before me. Gradually I was being oppressed. The force was great, I could barely breathed. I shouted for my Lord and tried to pray in tongues but I failed. I was hardly in control over my body but my mind was clear. The room was in complete darkness, i tried shouting but my voice faded into the air. I tried commanding it to leave in the name of Jesus but I can't say the word "Jesus". I tried very hard, it just couldn't get out of my mouth. My voice started to change, it wasn't me. I know I was possessed by some evil spirit. I was in struggle, struggle to gain control over my body and get out of this situation. I do not know who was in front of me, but a voice came, "Who will you choose?" I shouted, "I CHOOSE MY LORD JES.......US." That voice that came within me struggled, in agony. I kept shouting "I CHOOSE MY LORD JE.......SUS.." and keep calling out to His name, "Jes.....us....."

I know that was the only way to save me, in His name the demons will have to leave, and only demons can't pronounce His name for it is with great authority. I went against the dark force, "Jes...us, Jes...us" it was all I can do until I felt a relief and the darkness was gone. But what I saw really shocked me. shadow of the curtain moving from half of my room to the right side. I mean, i saw half of the room filled with the shadow and the shadow slowly moving back to original place, which is only 1/5 of the room. And my curtain was moving, in an air con room with no fan, without the air from the air con blowing at it, it moved. I look at the time and it was 6 o'clock in the morning.

You may not believe it, neither will I expect you to believe it. But I have no choice but to believe it, and I choose to believe my Lord's name saved my life on that morning.

2008-07-23T08:56:00.002+08:00

Finally decided to write something here after a month plus. Well, many things had happened, and my spiritual walk had been up and down. Just when I thought I would sense God much clearly before I leave for Taiwan, it turned out to be otherwise. For a month plus, I could not hear or sense Him clearly and closely as I did before that. But it didn't seem like God has forsaken me and I know He will not. Perservering through it, keeping the hope that He is with me and will lead me through, I've made it to Taiwan.

Upon reaching Taiwan, somehow things started to change. Day by day i felt closer to God, for I have no one here to depend on but Him. It seems like the previous experience I had was a deception from satan that I am distant from God and leading me from glorifying God. God spoke and affirmed His faithfulness through Deuteronomy 31:6 "Be strong and courageous, do not be afraid or tremble at them, for the LORD your God is the one who goes with you He will not fail you or forsake you." and Hebrews 13:5 "Let your manner of living be without covetousness, and be content with such things as ye have. For He hath said, "I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee". Testimonies followed after I am led closer to Him again. I have then learned from Him many things which I have been blinded from.

Our bodies, actions and thoughts, they can be a tool to do great things or evil. Satan like to deceive us using words in our minds like "I am, I will be, ...". Often he led us to sin and then putting thoughts into our mind like "I am sinful.." Just like Paul mentioned in Romans 7:15-25, "Now if I do that which I would not do, it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me." Our bodies are tools to the spiritual realm. Our soul chooses to seve either the good or the evil.

Now then, temptations. It is like a rotten apple dipped in chocolate: appealing to the eyes, destruction for our bodies, assuming the body is the soul. Last word, by the fear of the Lord, one departs from evil.

Amazingly Designer

2008-06-01T17:41:00.003+08:00

Earth : Click to watch this video

Giraffe : Click to watch this video

Life cannot be created with all the ingredients of a body : Frog Soup Example

Watch Design Vs Human Design : Click to watch this video

Additional discovery. :P
Mt Sinai : Where God descended on fire and gave to Moses the 10Commandments

I thank God for such amazing designs on all things that we have around us. Things inclusive of our bodies, animals, earth and etc; things that no scientists can fabricate. Lovely!

Revelation of the Time

2008-05-21T01:03:00.003+08:00

The Time is near, more signs have been fulfilled and completed.

Revelation 6:3-4
(Second Seal: Conflicts on Earth)
“ When He opened the second seal, I heard the second living creature saying, ‘Come and see.’
And another horse, fiery red went out. And it was granted to the one who sat on it to take peace from the earth,
and that people should kill one another; and there be given to him a great sword.”

Upon this verse was given the understanding of war and terrorism. ‘people killing one another’ has been fulfilled.

Revelation 6:5-6
(Third Seal: Scarcity on Earth)
“When He opened the third seal, I heard the third living creature say, ‘Come and see.’
And I looked, and behold, a black horse and he who sat on it had a pair of scales in his hand.
And I heard a voice in the midst of the four living creatures saying, ‘A quart of wheat for a denarius,
And three quart of barley for a denarius; and do not harm the oil and the wine.’”

Food scarcity can be seen in Myanmar after cyclone strike and Africa. Together with global warming and floods leading to failures in traditional farming, all these led to scarcity of food on earth. Yet for wine, there is no crisis except that they are over producing it.
Here’s a video by a Norway man in 2007, predicting the shortage of food in 2008.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wFIlVkDEwV4
Does he mean Myanmar food shortage for 17days?

Revelation 6:7-8
(Fourth Seal: Widespread Death on Earth)
“When He opened the fourth seal, I heard the voice of the fourth living creature saying, ‘Come and see.’
And I looked, and behold, a pale horse. And the name of him who sat on it was Death, and Hades followed with him.
And power was given to them over a fourth of the earth, to kill with sword, with hunger, with death, and by the beasts of the earth.”

China earthquake, Myanmar cyclone, SARS, terrorism, sudden death during sleep and even body producing flame that burn themselves up, and animal attacking human; they fulfilled the scriptures.
http://attack.igorilla.com/ contains information on animals attacking man, killing them as written in the Bible.

Revelation 6:12
“I looked when He opened the sixth seal, and behold, there was a great earthquake;
and the sun became black as sackcloth of hair, and the moon became like blood.”

Earthquakes are taking place all over the world, 2004 Sumatra earthquake reached a magnitude of 9.1,
while the highest recorded earthquake magnitude was 9.5 at Chile, in 1960.
Total solar eclipse is expected to be on 1August 2008, last lunar eclipse has happened in 27October 2004. The bible mentioned a great earthquake, sun became black and moon became red, I have yet to know if all happens at the same time or separate timing.

Revelation 6:16
“And the kings of the earth, the great men, the rich men, the commanders, the mighty men, every slave and every free man, hid themselves in the caves and in the rocks of the mountains, and said to the mountains and rocks, ‘Fall on us and hide us from the face of Him who sits on the throne and from the wrath of the Lamb! For the great day of His wrath has come, and who is able to stand?”

The Doom’s Day Cult members have already started fulfilling this part stated in the bible.

Revelation 8:7
(First Trumpet: Vegetation Struck)
“The first angel sounded. And hail and fire followed, mingled with blood, and they were thrown to the earth; and a third of the trees were burned up, and all green grass was burned up.”

This verse reminded me of the forest fire happened many times in the past, and even in Singapore, Yishun grass hill was burnt. But a greater one is yet to come.

Revelation 8:8
(Second Trumpet: The Seas Struck)
”Then the second angel sounded: And something like a great mountain burning with fire was thrown into the sea, and a third of the sea became blood; and a third of the living creature in the sea died, and a third of the ships were destroyed.”

Tsunami, an unusual large sea wave produced by seaquake(earthquake on sea bed) or undersea volcanic eruption. It could be Year2004 Tsunami, which killed many and destroyed many ships and living creatures in the sea at a magnitude of 9.1; or it could mean another Tsunami to come.

The Day is near, brethrens, “watch, stand fast, be brave, be strong.”

Thank You Jesus

2008-04-27T12:59:00.001+08:00

Lead Me Lord

Worthy is the Lamb

Lead me to the Cross

All For Love

Wildness of God

2008-04-12T00:29:00.003+08:00

Interestingly noted by Brent Curtis & John Eldredge in their book "The Sacred Romance", they pointed out the wild side of God when dealing in our lives. It intrigued me to find out this aspect of God and wonder why it even happens. Taking example of Job's walk with God, finding out how God even allowed Satan to enter Job's life, to almost destroy him. Job is a blameless, upright, a man who fears God and shun evil. Job 1:8 (⁸ Then the Lord asked Satan, “Have you noticed my servant Job? He is the finest man in all the earth. He is blameless—a man of complete integrity. He fears God and stays away from evil.”)

Why would God do such things to him? Do read Job 1:6-12; Job 2:1-10 to find out what happened to Job and what did God do in his life. God allowed satan to kill Job's children and destroy his property, then allowing satan to again inflict sores and pain unto Job. Yet in Job 2:10, it speaks a lot as Job rebukes even his wife in order to protect the faith that he has in God.

Also in Jeremiah 20:7-9
" ⁷ O Lord, you misled me,
and I allowed myself to be misled.
You are stronger than I am,
and you overpowered me.
Now I am mocked every day;
everyone laughs at me.
⁸ When I speak, the words burst out.
“Violence and destruction!” I shout.
So these messages from the Lord
have made me a household joke.
⁹ But if I say I’ll never mention the Lord
or speak in his name,
his word burns in my heart like a fire.
It’s like a fire in my bones!
I am worn out trying to hold it in!
I can’t do it! "

It seems like God has placed Jeremiah in a situation where he is in bad shape and still cannot get out of it. God also left Abraham with his knife raised and almost killed Isaac; He left Joseph in Egyptians' prison for years; He allowed Jesus to be crucified on the cross. Why does He does all these when He has the ability to just twist the whole scenario around?

In Job's walk with God, it did not appear as smooth as it deems to be. Yet Job's faith is so strong, despite so many things against him, he chose to trust in God. Abraham too, choosing to honor God, knowing that the son is given through Him and and be saved through Him too, did not cease to lift the knife up. Joseph, believing that God is with Him is true and right about his faith, that God helped him at a right timing. In Jesus' case, it appeared as late as Jesus died on the cross. Yet, it was just the beginning of the big story of this Faith. In Luke 24:44-47, it explained that everything must be fulfilled so that God's plan can work.

We are all living to fulfill this purpose, the work of God. For these people and Jesus, what happened to them may seem to be least expected since they are righteous, blameless, and aways loving God. God chose them to work this aspect of the work, causing them to suffer on earth, but exalted Jesus high above all creation on earth. To view it in a story form, God's story has His climax and downfall. God chose Job, Jeremiah, Abraham and Jesus to play the climax, where the least expected occurs and leading to a downfall. Yet with this climax, the whole story was made perfect in God's directing.

Therefore, trust that God has a plan for you, though it may be bad, but with God, you are never out of His perfect story! (:

Deception of the World Part I

2008-04-06T23:46:00.003+08:00

Deceptions of the World Part I:
Today as I was doing my quiet time, God spoke a lot regarding one of the greatest deceptions of the world : Lust. I had pen it down as God revealed to me the truth behind it.

Ephesian 4:14
"that we should no longer be children tossed to and fro and carried about with every wind of doctrine, by the trickery of men, in the cunning craftiness by which they lie in wait to deceive."

This verse reminded me of the sermon on 5April 2008, that the world is a place of deception

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Ephesian 4:23
"and be renewed in the spirit of your mind."

As taught during the sermon, we should renew our mind in order to remove our old conduct.

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As I was showering, God spoke about the greatest lie for this world, that is LUST. Cases upon cases of raping, sex scandals and with media promoting sex, and more places like clubs and pubs that causes intimacy and lust to occur. No doubt the world is living in debauchery. It is leading us away from God's commandment,

Galatians 5:19-21
^"19Now the works of the flesh are manifest, and they are these: adultery, fornication, uncleanness, lasciviousness,
²⁰idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, quarreling, rivalry, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies,
²¹envying, murders, drunkenness, revelings, and such like. About these things I tell you again, as I have also told you in times past, that those who do such things shall not inherit the Kingdom of God."

and Romans 8:5-8
^"5For those who are according to the flesh mind the things of the flesh; but those who are according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit. ⁶For to be carnally minded is death, but to be spiritually minded is life and peace, ⁷because the carnal mind is enmity against God, for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be.
⁸So then, those who are in the flesh cannot please God."

Ephesians 4:22
^"22that ye put off, concerning your former manner of living, the old man which is corrupt according to the deceitful lusts, "

Indeed, this lust is deceitful, causing us to think it is alright since the world is doing so; that there is not much fault to release our stress ad respond to our physical or biological need. WRONG! FALSE ASSUMPTION AND UNTRUE REASONS.

1 Thessalonian 4:17
"For God did not call us to uncleanness, but in Holiness."

It is therefore stated, James 1:14-16
"¹⁴But every man is tempted when he is drawn away by his own lust and enticed. ¹⁵Then when lust hath conceived, it brings forth sin; and sin, when it is finished, brings forth death. ¹⁶Do not be deceived, my beloved brethren."

and in 1 John 2:15-17
"Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him For all that is in the world - the LUST of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life - is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever. "

Indeed the world is passing away, and lust which belongs to the world will pass away together with the world. Let us then, not be deceived but to set our focus on the eternal life that God promised. Galatian 5:21 : "About these things I tell you again, as I have also told you in times past, that those who do such things shall not inherit the Kingdom of God."

I thank God for telling me all these and granting me the energy to pen it down and blog it even down I am really really tired at this point of time. Thank God for showing me so many verses to show me the truth. I felt that Part II is going to be pride. I shall wait for God to tell me and then I will pen it down and blog it again. (: Hallelujah!

1 April 2008

2008-04-05T11:16:00.001+08:00

Lord my God, You have fulfilled Your Promise, granting me my prayer, that is allowing me to hear Your word. You had told me in advance, converting my sorrow and worries to joy. Having the seed of faith and Your word being spread, that I know my 'bound served Your will. There my joy remains, that Your presence is in my life.

24 March 2008

2008-03-24T10:50:00.000+08:00

As I read Acts 24 today, I felt God is telling me something. I was confined for falling in late. I was troubled and asked God to help me, at least to allow me to attend church on Saturday. Yet when I read on, the last phrase caught me: "left Paul bound." Am I planned to get confined? After reading that and somehow God comforted me, telling me that I can share the Gospel during my extra duty. Perhaps there is a plan, I shall not doubt but trust in God if that is really the case. Lord, the timing is Yours but I still want to pray for Saturday. Lord I know You have a word for me. Lord, I want to hear it, please allow me to come. But Lord, let Your will be done on Your own timing. In Jesus' most precious name, Amen.

Freed from Deception

2008-03-23T13:55:00.004+08:00

Yesterday's sermon was part II for the previous week, telling us that satan uses deception to deceive us, then dominate us before destroying us. Part II showed me clearly on how satan deceive us: that is through psychological effect like that of a chained elephant.

FYI: When a young elephant is chained with metal chain by their tamers, and being unable to break the chain, she felt weak against it and eventually giving up breaking the chain. The chain is then replaced by a rope when the elephants grow up. However, with the mighty strength they now possess, they will never break the rope, thinking that they are still as well as the past. Now that they have been "set free" from the metal chain, they remain "chained" until they realize they are freed.

Satan uses this method to chain us up, causing us to be his slave of sin and death. When Jesus died on the cross for us, we have been set free from then on. Likewise to the elephants' case, we thought that we are still chained and not freed, we failed to walk out of it and continue becoming slaves to sin and death.

As I was searching for the verseThen you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free." on www.bible.com, God showed me 2more verses.

First verse was Romans 6:22
"But now that you have been set free from sin and have become slaves to God, the benefit you reap leads to holiness, and the result is eternal life. "

and second verse was Romans 8:2
"because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death."

Now I have the confidence, the truth and authority(Luke 10:19), I will be able to detect the deception of the evil and walk in light with God. Hallelujah!

Satan defeated, Glory be to God

2008-03-15T07:53:00.003+08:00

Glory be to God again! On Wednesday and Thursday, I was troubled by 2issues and the battle in the spiritual realm was so real that I could feel it.

First, it was my duty on Friday morning till Saturday morning. I was told by the duty forecast in charge that I have to forward my duty due to my new course coming up and he scheduled me on Friday when I already have one on Wednesday. I was worried that it will be very tiring for me on Saturday and I may lose concentration during sermon. I prayed to God for strength and energy during sermon. But God showed His mercy and grace, when I randomly asked the initial duty personnel whose duty I am taking over, he said he would be glad to do on Friday. That means I will not be exhausted and feel tired, lest be distract from hearing God's words. How great and wonderfully God worked!

Second issue was my duty on Saturday Commissioning Parade. I was activated for duty on Saturday, right after my duty. Somehow I felt that something is wrong in the spiritual realm, and satan is pulling me away from God. I fasted, prayed and placed my faith in God, believing that when we try to reach out for Him, He will not reject us and will help us to be with Him.

This is something scary: on Thursday night, when I was on my way back home, I was so desperate because I really wanted to go church and as you know, it is hard for me to excuse from duty, I decided to get GO to pray for me. Just before I type the message and send, satan taunted me. "why are you so weak? why do you need people to pray for you? you can pray on your own too?" 3times he taunted me, I chose to walk off and sent the message. As I walk, I thought to myself: "yes, so what I am weak, I am never strong. I am weak but I was made strong through God, it is God who made me strong." I was also being reminded by Holy Spirit of "The true vine". "I am the vine, you are the branches. ... For without Me you can do nothing." Upon thinking of that, I felt that the victory trumpet has been blown. Yet I do not know the result whether can I be excused from duty on Saturday.

On Friday itself, I approached my superior to tell him I have church and I cannot go for the commissioning parade. My colleague was beside me and satan worked through him, adding words that may prevent me from coming to God. Then my superior told me to find the guy who passed the duty to me. I was kind of irritated when I approach him, believing that he dump his duty to me because he want to spend time with his girlfriend.

Here is where my pride came in, I thought to myself that I am spending time with God, doing better things than you who spend time with a girl. But I realized my mistake a while later and I chose to humble myself down, telling myself that he may have other agenda and I should not be so judgmental. So we approached our superior together and tell him we both can not make it on Saturday. My superior ask me to check with the other duty personnel and see if he can manage with only 2people. I believe till this point the battle is going on between God and satan. While satan is trying to pull me away from God, God worked in every detail to pull me to Him. I received a reply from my friend and he said he is fine with only 2people for the duty.

Hallelujah, satan failed again. A loser fighting against a big Champ, without the power of God he can do nothing too. Besides, God will never help him with evil for our God is Holy and Just! haha. Thank You, Father in Heaven. I am able to come on Saturday!!

Glory be to God

2008-03-13T21:02:00.002+08:00

Here to glorify God, to share how much God have worked in my life. Since the last post in December, there have been many changes in my life. For people who knew the alternate side of me; I was an alcoholic, getting myself drunk in alcohol. I was into clubbing, falling into lust and self denial, escaping from the reality for the night. Yes, that was me after a downfall in my life when someone whom I treasured dearly left me. I picked myself up and fell, which was explained in my previous post. Now, here I am to tell you, that through God's grace I picked myself up, getting rid of the addiction and away from the temptation of lust. Though many times I crave to drink, but through God's power I rejected many offers to club and drinking.

Also, recently I found myself walking with God more closely, a prayer answered. I desire more of this, I want to be with God, even if the road down is tough and I may fail many times. I place my faith in Him believing He has a greater plan in my life for me. I have seen through many things, things in my life that does not need much attention for they are things that will pass when the time comes. I have found better matter to focus, that is the work of God, salvation throughout the world and spreading His words to all nations. My days on earth ain't long, I don't have eternity to do them, I have my life to follow God's command, "GO, and make disciples of all nations". I am spending this time to learn instead of wasting it on unfruitful relationships, addictions and other side focus. I am too young to talk about relationship, I am leaving it to God.

I will depend on God in everything I do, I will not give up till the last breath. Even if everything is bad for me, I have CONFIDENCE in God that He will OVERCOME with me. Lord, please guide me yo!! (:

21dec

2007-12-21T19:38:00.000+08:00

i will not give up pursuing God, even if i keep stumbling and got bruised all over, i will stand and walk again. God, i may take longer time, please wait for me.

18Decemeber

2007-12-18T16:52:00.000+08:00

it has been a long while since i blog. for the past few weeks, too many things had happened in my life. good and bad, they all come. i asked myself, where am i now... this blog is suppose to inspire others towards God but this entry is gonna be different from the rest, it's gonna be about me.

for the past few weeks, i did not turn up for church a few times due to work commitment. my spiritual life came to a downfall. i started skipping quiet time, i prayed less often, my heart hardened and i felt less of God. i am turning towards the world.

i got back to clubbing and drinking, to fill up the emptiness in my heart. this emptiness was once filled up by her, who took a part of me and left. memories of her came back to me these few weeks, followed by heartache and anger. on top of this mixed feeling, the thought of another her who treasured me yet i chose to leave, stirs up even more emotions from within.

a little of the story, i met A and we started off as a young couple. soon it ended and i got into drinking and clubbing, hoping to find an escape through these. 3months later, i met B. she was always there for me, going the extra miles for the relationship. i was affected and we got together. she was so nice, accepting the fact that i can't forget A, she even tried to help me get over A. yet, we broke up cuz i can't take the stress. it was unfair to her either way, be it breaking up or not breaking up.

thank you mx, this song is for you.

on top of that, stress at work. items missing and i was blamed for it when i was not even around the site. i was accused of not doing my job when in fact, i have worked till my injury got worsen. buggers at work.

i am ending with this last piece of bad news, my physiotherapist said that i can no longer carry on my shooting.

Isn't He full of wonderful surprises?

2007-11-07T21:42:00.000+08:00

Hallelujah! what more can I praise Him, the Almighty God.

Thank God for helping me with my work. Thank God for helping me in my life. Thank God for so many other things in my life!! but I just wanna share on how wonderfully He has helped me when things seem impossible.

Firstly, the whole week in Tekong was good. When the weather was really hot and scorching, God provided the rain moments later after my thoughts. Then, work went smoothly, no faults, no scolding. I had fever and recovered the next day, and I only took the medicine once.

Back to Singapore, on Friday, when I was doing the last check for all equipments, 2items which cost a bomb were found missing(it has gold in it). I searched up and down, got my friend to search for me too and we couldn't find at all. Then on Monday, my bunkmate got his key stuck at the door, unable to open the bunk. My bundle of keys were in the bunk, I need those keys to return the borrowed equipment and if my superior found out that I did not pass the key to the respective personnel in charge, which is not the practice, I will be scolded again.

This is how God helped me. My bunkmate was able to unlock the door, and my superior was absent on Monday. Amazing! And when I return the remaining items to the store, they told me the 2items were returned in the morning when I was not around. I asked where did they find the missing items, the store in charge told me they found it on top of the vehicle, at a spot where no one would have expected it. Haha.. Thank God for answering my prayer in such an awesome and brilliant way. And then, I got an excuse letter from my specialist, that greatly increased my chances of not missing church! Thank God, I need more of You to make me right! I can't afford to miss a session with You!!! Praise You Lord!!! Thank You!!! (:

20 Oct Service

2007-10-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

Today's sermon was great. Finally had a glimpse of the Lord's love for us. I had this vision today after praying to Lord to let me understand why does His heart break upon us.

The vision I had was this:
The earth was bombarded. Great explosions occurring on the earth. Man are killing each other through the destructive weapons. And lastly, the Day came and His promise be fulfilled.
Thoughts that came to me, but put yourself in God's shoe.
- your precious creation killing each other and destroying each other,
- you know that they cannot be with you if they do not repent AND you know that the DAY you decided will come, sweeping all on the earth, yet they do not repent.
- you know that your way is right but your creation is not following you.

Put it into another scenario, you see your children killing each other; you know one day the world will end and if they do not change, they can no longer be with you, your beloved one cannot be with you; you know that what you are doing is right and good for them to follow but they refused to.

While I was having the vision, I do not feel any fiery or anger from God. Yes, His wrath will come when He returns, but from the vision, I felt His heart broken and tears flowing as He sweep His creation off the land. For the Lord stated that He do not take pleasure in the death of anyone(Ezekiel 18:32). Love is the keyword. If God so loved the world that He sent His begotten son to die for our sins, will He then not weep when the Day comes?

Some may think He can just remove that Day. NO! He never go back on His words! He has given us the book of Revelation, isn't that His grace and mercy?! He is telling us directly to repent before it's too late! If He remove that Day, then you will be doubting His promises He have given us!

Father, i THANK YOU for showing me Your point of view, to understand from Your point of view is to allow me to love the world in the way You loved us! Holy Spirit, fill the heart of those who read this with Your compassion and love You have for us. Show them why does Your heart break when they do not repent. Father, i just want to give all the Thanks that i can offer to You, for loving me so much. God, You are my Father, my God, You are my Saviour, my Protector. You are all wonderful and loving! Praise be to You Father, for your Love and Mercy is more than sufficient for me! Amen!

11Oct 2007

2007-10-11T19:59:00.000+08:00

HI ALL!!! I'm back!!! (: i was really busy for the past few weeks, but i believe God was with me. Thank God for being with me and forgiving me all the times when i sin against Him. Lord my God, teach me and guide me till the end of my life!

alright, back to my experience with God. Last Saturday was awesome. God's presence was so strong during the sermon and i saw Him in vision! (: Holy Spirit guided me as i led the praise and worship for the cellgroup. for those who do not know, i'm musically handicapped! i can't sing and catch the timing. but i believe God led me at that time. Praise be to God, thank you Father!

And for today! i was browsing youtube and happen to came across this video when Isaiah 53 caught my attention. Isaiah chapter 53 wrote about He who will grow up before God, go through suffering and despises, exalted high before men, bore the sin of many and made intercession for the transgressors. Isaiah was wrote before New Testament, meaning to say it was approximately 400years before Jesus was born. Isaiah prophesied the coming of Jesus Christ and what will happen to Him.

This was one of the music video that touched my heart, the video was taken from Passion of Christ though. Initially i felt peace in my heart, then i felt the pain, thank You Jesus, for saving us on the cross, forgiving the sins of many.

Revelation 19 and 20

2007-09-20T23:08:00.000+08:00

Christ on a White Horse! This is mentioned in Revelation 19 and on His thigh was written " King of Kings and Lord of Lords " Holy war against the beast and his armies, He won! (: Victory!

Revelation 20, satan bound for 1000years. I wonder why God release him for a little while after that 1000years. Judgment came and those whose name is not on the Book of Life was cast into the lake of fire.

I am going to stay in soon!!! Gonna ask my 2ic if i can book out on next Saturday for church!!

Stucked...

2007-09-18T22:41:00.000+08:00

I'm stuck. Gonna squeeze 2 chapters of Revelation into 1 post. heh..

Revelation 17 mentioned about the Scarlet Woman and the Scarlet Beast. How they make war with the Lamb and got defeated.

Revelation 18 talks about the Fall of Babylon the Great. A mighty angel threw a stone that was like a great millstone into the sea, saying "Thus with violence the great city Babylon shall be thrown down, and shall not be found anymore."

Revelation 16

2007-09-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

Woe, the seven bowls of wrath!

The first bowl : Malignant Sores
The second bowl : Sea turns to Blood
The third bowl : Waters turn to Blood
The fourth bowl : Men are scorched
The fifth bowl : Darkness and Pain
The sixth bowl : Euphrates Dried Up
The seventh bowl : The Earth Utterly Shaken

wanna know more? Revelation 16

Revelation 15

2007-09-15T22:13:00.000+08:00

"The temple was filled with smoke from the glory and from His power,"

This part of the verse caught my attention and painted an image in my mind. A pity I can't paint it out. haha. Fill your mind with this, on the bright clouds laid a shining temple, pure and shining white majestic building built of huge boulders; with an opened marvelous gigantic door more than 10times of your height, and from it comes the beam of His glory, only visible through the smoke. Alright, i tried my best to paint that image in your mind. artistic? :P it's all in your mind. (:

Revelation 14

2007-09-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

Now in Revelation 14 it talk about the suffering of the people with the mark of the beast, the reaping of the Earth's Harvest. Wanna know more??

Here's a link! Revelation 14

Revelation 13

2007-09-13T21:46:00.000+08:00

Revelation 13 mentioned 2beasts, one from the sea and the other from land. Both descriptions reminded me of something I've seen elsewhere, spot on for all that were written about the beasts. Curious to know what I've seen? Ask me in person and I will tell you! (:

Revelation 12

2007-09-12T21:33:00.000+08:00

Revelation 12 described about the war made between the dragon, the Woman and the Child who was to rule all nations with a rod of iron. The dragon persecuted the woman who gave birth to the Child but she escaped with the 2wings given to her. The dragon then decided to make war with the rest of her offspring. It also mention about satan thrown out of heaven, to the earth and woe to the inhabitants of the earth and the sea, for the devil has come down to you, having great wrath because he knows that he has a short time.

Revelation 11

2007-09-11T21:17:00.000+08:00

Revelation 11 talks about the 2witnesses; how people who dwell on earth rejoice over their death and yet not repent. It also talk about the ark in the temple of God in heaven. Lightnings, noises, thunderings, earthquake and great hail followed as the temple of God opens in heaven and revealing the ark: The Powerful Ark!

Revelation 10

2007-09-10T23:02:00.000+08:00

Revelation 10 talks about the Mighty Angel with the Little Book. The angel stood on sea on his right foot and on his left the earth. His face was like the sun, legs like pillars of fire and rainbow was on his head. John took the little book from the angel and ate it. (: Yummy! but it will turn the stomach bitter. heh.

Revelation 8 & 9

2007-09-09T22:38:00.000+08:00

Revelation 8 and 9 talks about the Seventh Seal : Prelude to the Seven Trumpet. To each trumpet comes with a strike, strike to earth and mankind.
First Trumpet : Vegetation Struck;
Second Trumpet : The Seas Struck;
Third Trumpet : Waters Struck;
Fourth Trumpet : The Heaven Struck;
Fifth Trumpet : The Locust from the Bottomless Pit;
Sixth Trumpet : The Angels from the Euphrates;
Seventh Trumpet : The Kingdom Proclaimed(Revelation 11)

These 2 chapters showed me what will happen to the earth when the Day comes. Chaos, darkness, torment, dreadful; when one finds no death to end his pain and suffering. Yet to those who repented, they are spared from these. (:

Revelation 7

2007-09-07T23:05:00.000+08:00

Revelation 7 talks about the Sealed of Israel and a Multitude from the Great Tribulation. Under 'A Multitude from the Great Tribulation', it spurs me to be more of God and less of the world, the white robe is the factor that attracted me to be more Godly. The purity, the qualification to wear that, a sign of sinless-ness and the acknowledgment from God. It's way better than all the ranks and badges; all the diamonds and jewels, and it is from God!!!!!

Revelation 6

2007-09-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

First Seal : The Conquerer; Second Seal : Conflicts on Earth; Third Seal : Scarcity on Earth;
Fourth Seal : Widespread Death on Earth; Fifth Seal : The Cry of the Martyrs;
and Sixth Seal : Cosmic Disturbances

Under Cosmic Disturbance in v12, I recalled there was once I saw the moon in red after church. Amazing... According to scientific facts, it has got to do with cosmic refraction. Be prepared for all these!!! They are coming soon as each day passes!!!

Revelation 5

2007-09-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

hmm... Pretty short but I learned that Jesus was worthy to take the scroll and open it!!! Hallelujah!!

Revelation 4

2007-09-04T23:04:00.000+08:00

Revelation 4 talk about The Throne Room of Heaven, with description of the Throne, of the 4 living creatures, the 24 elders and how they praise God. Exciting eh.. haha... I must make my stand firm!!!! So I can see it with my own eyes, and hopefully join in the joy!!! (x

Revelation 3

2007-09-04T22:24:00.000+08:00

Revelation 3 continues with another 3 more churches; The Dead Church, The Faithful Church and Lukewarm Church.

Revelation 3:2-3
"Be watchful, and strengthen the...... I will come upon you. "
This part speaks a lot to me. First thing of all, I felt that my work for God is not perfect and God is telling me to be watchful, hold fast and repent. This led me to think even further. What is perfection? I do not have the confidence to say I can do it, except to remind myself constantly that I need to be watchful. Also, "and you will not know what hour I will come upon you.", I have been thinking about this, that we do not know when He will come. And I am always worried that I will be ashame to see Him when He comes, for I know my work is not perfect and have not done enough on my part.

Revelation 3:10-11
"Because you have kept My command.... may take your crown."
The part on "to test those who dwell on earth." seems to be talking about God testing whether we are willing to part with worldliness and be with Him. I felt His mercy and grace in it, that He is giving us another chance to repent and make a final decision.

In the last part, Revelation 3 talks about the Lukewarm Church, people having both side of the "world". How then can the salt be sweet at the same time and, water and oil be mixed? Likewise the Holy and the evil. To those who rebuke saying by chemical means, I would like to ask if the product is corrupted and not of purity. Because this is crucial, our stand must be firm, so that we will not be doubtful on where we will be.

Revelation 2

2007-09-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

Revelation 2 talked about Loveless Church, Persecuted Church, Compromising Church and Corrupt Church.

Revelation 2:2-4
"I know your works, .... left your first love."
In "Loveless Church", I learnt that even though all things were done but without love for God and others, it is quite useless too.

Revelation 2:10
"Do not fear... crown of life."
I also learnt about not fearing at those things which I am about to suffer, being faith till death.

Revelation 2:23
"And I will.... according to your works."
Lastly for today's chapter, I learnt in v23 that God searches our minds and hearts and He will give to each one of us what we deserve base on our work.

On top of these 3churches, I also learnt that when we overcome, God will
1) allow us to eat from the tree of life(Revelation 2:7),
2) not be hurt by second death(Revelation 2:11),
3) give some hidden manna to eat and a white stone with a new name(Revelation 2:17),
4) give authority over nations(referring to the enemies in NLT Study Bible) and morning star(Jesus Christ Himself (Revelation 22:16), referring to Jesus exposing the evil with His light of truth and bringing the promised rewards at the bleakest point which is before dawn, when it is the coolest and the darkest.)

Revelation 1

2007-09-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

Revelation 1:8
" 'I am the Alpha and the Omega, the Beginning and the End' says the Lord, 'who is and who was and who is to come, the Almighty.' "
This verse is like trying to tell me, when the Lord returns, it is the End because the Beginning was over. ahh... Beware! Sin no longer and live by His words, for He said the Day will come like a thief in the night, unexpected. Preserve yourself at all times, so that you will not fall and be with Him from that Day onwards.

Today's sermon was about Procrastination. One of the key factor affecting many students as we have already known and surprising to believers too. Students who procrastinated often found themselves too late to get their revision done and likewise, our spiritual life too. Christians who procrastinate whatever task given to them will miss the opportunities to serve, succeed and fulfilling our destiny. I did not realize that procrastination comes from the devil who tries to destroy us until today. I recalled of a few incidents when I procrastinated my quiet time, missing out the great words of His which can guide me for the day. And those days when I procrastinated my quiet time to "tomorrow", I ended up in a mess when things in my life gets handy and untidy. Those words that I ought to read could have helped me through this mess but due to my procrastination, I ended up living in a mess as I have missed the words.

I thank God that despite my procrastination, He was there to help me with the mess and I was not defeated.

Jude

2007-08-31T22:40:00.000+08:00

Jude v20-23
"But you, beloved, building yourselves up on your most.... even the garment defiled by the flesh."
These verses spoke to me as a reminder to my spiritual life with God. Telling me to build on my faith(bible, sermon etc) and praying in the Holy Spirit (tongues, and as mentioned in my previous post, praying in tongue can help to build up faith and trust in God as well).

Recently I've read an article regarding Mother Theresa's unbelief in God. As a servant of God and highly respected by others for her faith in God, Mother Theresa faced trials and tough time in her spiritual walk too. Her unbelief came about when she doubted God's presences. Some may be taken aback by her unbelief but despite her doubts on God's presence, she never stop working for God. Reflecting on this article, I realized people react differently when they face faith crisis. Some may choose to give in to the situation and walk away from God, some may choose to conquer this faith crisis. I do not know how Mother Theresa conquer her doubts about God's presence, but one thing I know for sure, she did not choose to walk away from the faith crisis. She persevered, struggling through her faith crisis until the day she was called to join God in heaven. I'm inspired by her decision, not wanting to be defeated by the faith crisis and walk away from God, but facing it with perseverance and determination to do good for others due to love.

3John

2007-08-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

3 John1:3-4
"For I rejoiced greatly when brethren came.... walk in the truth."
I found that this verse is pretty true, not only will you feel the joy but the encouragement from their faith. (: I find that when we make disciple of all nation, God make it such a way that it benefits both parties. By teaching and guiding others, we put a lamp on their path and helping them to reach God. Hearing and seeing disciples walking in the truth gives joy and encouragement to the one discipling. And God's will is at work too! what a win-win-win situation!! (X

2John

2007-08-29T22:11:00.000+08:00

2John 1:10-11
"If anyone comes to you and does not bring this doctrine, do not receive him into your house nor greet him, for he who greets him shares in his evil deeds."
Initially I was wondering why are these verses so harsh to those who do not bring the doctrine until I read from NLT study bible.

The translation is as such:
"If anyone comes to your meeting and does not teach the truth about Christ, don't invite that person into your house or give any kind of encouragement. Anyone who encourages such people becomes a partner in their evil work."
John is against those who are opposing God, he did not condemn hospitality to unbelievers. By inviting these false teachers into our house, we are indirectly agreeing to their teaching and allowing them to share with us, thus approving their work in another way. A false teacher is an unbeliever too, but within this unbeliever, there is a spirit of error. They lead others away from the truth. This is serious because they are against the work of God.

Faith in tongues and confrontment of doubt.

2007-08-29T10:56:00.000+08:00

I was praying in tongue last night and half way through the Holy Spirit spoke to me. He said, that by praying in tongue, I have taken a step of faith in believing Him and his gift. And by offering my prayers in tongue, I have taken another step of faith in believing that He is real and His gift is real. How amazing tongues can be, not only to offer prayer but also to add unto our faith.

Regarding the doubt I had last night, Jordan and Holy Spirit guided me to the answer. Jordan led me to 1John4 which was about the spirit of error and Romans7:15-20 which was about the sinful nature within us; while Holy Spirit spoke to me as when we commit sins that gratify our desires but we still believe God is there to forgive us, we are like Paul who sins when he does not want to because of the sinful nature within us. We shall then ask for His forgiveness and repent and He shall give us spiritual life again through His forgiveness. However, when we are like those people mentioned in 1John4, we have the spirit of error within us, we refuse to believe in God and thus His salvation and forgiveness. At such, we are dead spiritually.

1John 5

2007-08-28T22:06:00.000+08:00

1John 5:4
"For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world - our faith."
I learnt from this verse that it is our faith in God that helps us overcome the world. (:

1John 5:16
"If anyone sees his brother.... that he should pray about that."
Now i have a question, what are sins not leading to death?? heh.. I shall find out and then let all you readers know again. (:

anyway, I am sick.. flu, sore throat, giddiness... Gotten 2 days of mc to rest at home.. that piece of paper on the top right is my favorite.. haha..

1John 4

2007-08-27T21:04:00.000+08:00

1John 4:6
"We are of God. He who knows God hears us; he who is not of God does not hear us. By this we know the spirit of truth and the spirit of error."
This verse reminded me of 2incidents; the first is during mission trip last year, a woman was paralyzed for a few years and she could walk after prayers for her. However, she was back to her paralyzed state a day or 2 later. For she said she rather die believing her god than ours. The truth was there for her, it was her choice to choose. Another incident was during an evangelism trip at Bukit Batok Mrt Station. I approached a student and asked if i can share with him my belief. His respond was great initially until he started to reject all the words. His reason was his belief in science. "he who is not of God does not hear us."...

1John 3

2007-08-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

1John 3:9 "Whoever has been born of God does not sin, for His seed remains in him; and he cannot sin, because he has been born of God."

This verse act as a reminder to me, that in our everyday walk with God, we shall not sin because His seed remains in us and we are born of God.

WOW!! Army half marathon was amazing!! though i didn't get to run but the crowd was amazing. 70thousand people took part in the run!! imagine this number of people praising God... wuahahaaa..

Singapore's Ferris Wheel!!!

1John 2

2007-08-25T23:31:00.000+08:00

1John 2:15-17
"Do not love the world of the things in the world. .... will of God abides forever."
From this we know that though the world will pass away, and all the things we hold onto will perish. Yet if we do His will, we will live eternity w Him.

1John 2:18
"Little children, it is the last hour, and.... it is the last hour."
This verse seems to say about the sign of His returning, I'm not certain too. It has already been said 2000yrs ago, that "even now many antichrists have come". And I believe the number is increasing after 2000yrs later. Doesn't that mean the time is coming soon? How soon, I do not know because it is stated that "But the day of the Lord will come as a thief in the night(2Peter3:10)".

We have to anticipate His returning, therefore leading to my last point I that I have learnt tonight:
1John 2:28
"And now, little children, abide in Him, that when He appears, we may have confidence and not be ashamed before Him at His coming.". We do not know when He is coming back, it may be tonight or another 1000yrs later. Yet what we can do to now is to do good, live in Him and His word, that we know we will be assure of a place in His Kingdom when He comes. And we will not be ashamed to face Him.

I used to think to myself at times when I sin against God, how will I respond to Him when I see Him if I continue to sin against Him. And so I thought to myself that I would bow my head down in shame, giving Him a big thank-you and telling Him I know where I will be going - the burning sauna tub. But that is not the case we want. I want to give Him a big thank-you and continue to live in Him, living in His joy and peace.

1John 1

2007-08-24T22:57:00.000+08:00

1John 1:8 & 10
"If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us."
"If we say that we have not sinned, we make Him a liar, and His word is not in us."
These verses spoke to me as when we say that we have no sin in us, we are trying to say that the truth is wrong; that what He said is wrong and at such, denying Him and His word.

1John 1:9
"If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
God provided a way for us to cleanse ourselves and be forgiven for our sins through Him, by confessing our sins to Him. He did not demand anything else but a sincere heart to seek Him for forgiveness.

2Peter 3

2007-08-23T22:03:00.001+08:00

2 Peter3:17
"You therefore, beloved, since ...... led away with the error of the wicked;"
beware beware!!! Since we have already known the truth, we hold greater responsibility because we have a choice now. Knowing the ending of each choice, be wise to choose the right path. (:

2Peter 2

2007-08-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

2 Peter2:17-19
"These are wells without water, .....by the same is he brought to bondage."
Verse19 tells me that even though the promises these people gave seem to be of freedom, they do not know that they are trapped in their own "desires".

I often heard from non-Christian that life is short, we must try out everything and enjoy ourselves while we can. Some will add on to say "I don't want to get restricted by anything, freedom is the best." Yet they do not know they are bounded by their own desires. Ironically, aren't they restricting themselves to the exposure to God?

On top of that, in Romans 3:11 "there is no one who understands, no one who seeks God ".
Also in Psalms 10:3-7, "he boast about the cravings of his heart, .... evil are under his tongue." God spoke to me through verse4 when He says "In his pride the wicked does not seek him, in all his thoughts there is no room for God." I found it true that we do not seek God on our own, we are always trying to gratify our own desires, leaving no room for God in our mind.

Oh, a piece of good news for everyone!!! Por, this young lady whom we met at Khon Kean during the last mission trip and received Christ on that day, I just found out that she still pray to God! The joy that came from knowing the seed is growing is indescribable. Now I know how it feels when the apostles, in the past, felt when they heard that those people whom they shared Christ with is growing in faith. To be honest, I've never felt so joyous before. haha. Thank God!

2Peter 1

2007-08-21T22:15:00.000+08:00

2Peter 1:5-7
"But also for this..... to brotherly kindness love."
verse6 spoke to me that knowing the word of God, we must add to ourself self control. The world has so many things that will tempt us and lead us away from God, only through self control can we resist all these and glorify God. Also, knowing that self control does not come easy, we have to be persevering in all these. Our reason to persevere is to be more godlike, following His Way.

2Peter 1:11
"for so an entrance.... Savior Jesus Christ."
At last, by abiding all these, we are assured of an entry to God's kingdom. (:

1Peter 5

2007-08-20T21:52:00.000+08:00

1Peter 5:3
"nor as being lords over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock;"
This verse caught my attention. Reflecting on our lives, we do have people who lead by examples and people whom abuse their authority over those entrusted to them. I felt that when one lords over others, there is a lack of love because we only care for our own desires, that is often fame. There is one Lord, who lords over the flock with Love and by examples, and that is Him, Jesus Christ. Let us then, humble ourselves down and set by examples, so that the world will know we are serious about Him.

1Peter 5:8-10
"Be sober, be vigilant; because.... and settle you."
These 3 verses spoke to me that we should, at all time be alert to all evildoing. The devil will not wait for the days when you're more vulnerable, he will seize every opportunity to attack you. We are not suffering all these temptations and sufferings alone. Our brothers are also experiencing them at the other part of the world. So we should not find excuses for ourselves not to resist the devil. Lets bring glory to God by resisting all these temptations! I shall be more alert and bring glory to God, not forgetting that He has suffered on the cross for us.

i felt that we should seek God every now and then... we spent so much time looking after our desires and goals, neglecting the will of His, calling it our lifestyle in the city.
Here are some fictional yet common life scenario:

#01 Student, *dreams* I TOPPED IN SCHOOL!!!!!

#02 Poor Man, *dreams* What? I've won?! WHAT?! 1MILLION?!?!?!!

#03 Teen *dreams* The cute guy/gal from the neighbour class is smiling at me, and he/she has requested for lunch together!!!

#04 Student: I wonder if I can pass this exam. What shall I do if I fail? Will Dad scold me? Will my friends laugh at me? Where can I go if I fail it? What about my future? Will I be employed? Will I be able to have my own family?

#05 Interviewee: I wonder if I can get pass this interview and secure this job. I wonder how will the questions be like? Am I dressed decently to leave a good impression for the interviewer? Am I up to this job? I wonder if the people here are nice? .......????

Scenario #01-#03 shows that even in our dream, we are pursuing our desires and goals.
Scenario #04 and #05; one doubt and many worries.

I believe that 99%[not statistical] of our worries, dreams and goals are not related to Him. How often do we dream of ourselves praising God in Heaven, how often are we concerned about His Will? If we can say that we trust Him in carrying out His will and do not have to worry, why can't we trust Him with our worries since He has told us not to worry for tomorrow. Aren't we not finding excuses for ourselves?

Let us focus on Him, not through worrying His will but seeking Him more often in our life.
That's a challenge for me, but I believe I'm a challenger of some of this world's pattern. [not being rebellious to the world but being resistive to all evildoing]

1Peter Chapter 4

2007-08-19T22:04:00.000+08:00

God, glory be to You whose words are alive and leading.

1Peter 4:3-5
"For we have spent enough of our past lifetime in doing the will of Gentiles... judging the living and the dead."
Indeed, we have spent enough of our past lifetime serving our own desires, following the pattern of the world. How is it now that we renew in our mind and follow what is good for us and how are we to know it is good for us? By faith. (:

1Peter 4:8-9
"And above all things have fervent love for one another, for 'love will cover a multitude of sins'. Be hospitable to one another without grumbling. "
I believe the world is so filled with love; the love of car, fashion, alcohol, drugs and most importantly, the love of oneself. It is time for the world to experience another type of love, let us, those who are called by Him, show the world that there is one more love and this love is greater than all the love they could have have in the world. As He said, "love your neighbor as yourself" and "love will cover a multitude of sins". His love for us has already covered a great multitude of sins and yet He did not grumble a word of complain. Let us lead by His example, loving others and without grumbling.

1Peter 4:18-19
"Now, 'If the righteous one is scarcely saved, ... as to a faithful Creator"
Let us obey Him till the day of Judgement! (: